The panties guessing game

A game Mistress Lilyan likes to play with me is the panties guessing game. The rules are pretty basic, I guess the colour of the panties she is wearing... If i guess correctly then there is a chance that she may give me a quick peek at them. If i'm wrong i get nothing! Panty teasing is one of my favourite things... being teased with upskirts, leg crossing/uncrossing so i can almost but not quite see panties. It drives me absolutely bananas... turns my mind to mush. Goddess is well aware of this and appears to enjoy it immensely also.

Today in her freechat room she was wearing stockings and a sexy red dress... White/red suspenders, pink shoes and green/gold eye makeup. I asked her if i could have a guess of her panties... for free! If Goddess has been satisfied with my behaviour then she will grant me one guess. Today she was feeling very generous and gave me a guess. As she was wearing a red dress, I chose the colour red. I was incorrect :-(

What usually happens after this point is I am offered more guesses at $10 a guess. However, today she informed me it would be $20 a guess!! In case you were wondering, Goddess read my second letter and decided to grant me the chance to see her in a session later this week. The fee for this session is a bit higher than I intended it to be but I have no choice but to pay it... I must see her! I need to transfer the money to my account in Australia before i can pay her which is what i was planning to do later today. She was aware of this and knew that she could convince me to send more by exploiting my panty teasing weakness. I knew this was her plan, but I can't resist my favourite game so i agreed. For each guess i'd owe her an additional $20 on top of the session fee.

My first guess, pink, was incorrect. $20 gone. I followed this up with another guess, purple, wrong again. Now i owed her $40. She had to do a private show so exited her room. During her absence i was well aware of the trap i was getting caught in... Goddess was teasing me mercilessly with her stockings and legs... she's a master at almost giving me glimpses at her panties. How could i resist? I could keep guessing and guessing and fall into dept!

She returned and I informed her that I can't afford any guesses... she smiled and began teasing again. Before i knew what was going on i was begging her for another guess. I guessed silver... wrong again! $60 in dept now. I realised that i really had to stop the game right there and then. However, Goddess then told me I was very close to being correct, and hinted that i should chose white. Excited, I quickly agreed to another $20 and guessed white... wrong again! Goddess laughed, I put my head in my hands and groaned... a groan of frustration and of arousal... i must confess the teasing had me excited as well as frustrated! Goddess had tricked me!

Then i thought about how after adding the $80 on top of my session fee, the total I had to pay now almost double what I was planning to pay last week... before she raised her session fee then started the panty game... she was pushing me beyond my limits... then something happened... the seed of moneyslavery planted by goddess took over... i was so horny at the idea of goddess getting more of my money. I was defeated, i had no idea what colour to choose and was almost certain that I'd choose unsuccessfully... but for a brief moment, i wanted to lose. I wanted to give Goddess an extra $100 instead of $80. So i guessed again... grey! I was wrong again.

$100 and no panties. Goddess was thrilled. I was frustrated but also happy that Goddess was entertained by my plight. In an act of good will she gave me one last free guess... I guessed blue... wrong again!

I then begged to know what colour they were... even if i can't see them. Goddess refused and told me she wanted to torment me. I wanted to be tormented too.

*****************

However, after writing this I realised what colour they must have been... GOLD! Of course! Close to silver and she was wearing gold makeup! GRRRRRRRR!!!!!!

Oh well... I hope goddess enjoys the $100 extra she got from me today... she earned it :-)

The seeds have been planted...

I wasn't able to make a post yesterday and I wasn't able to come online until minutes before Goddess signed out of her freechat room. This is because of my girlfriend having time off work and being home. I live in a small apartment so when we are home together i don't have any privacy so i can't do any blogging or chatting and admiring of Goddess Lilyan.

A few weeks ago i would have been happy with having time together with my girlfriend. We don't have the most exciting of relationships but we can enjoy each other's company. However over the last 2 days I've been left feeling frustrated... She has been preventing me from seeing my beautiful Goddess. I've had moments when I've been imagining what Goddess is wearing, what she is doing... what sexy things should could be doing or saying... but i couldn't know because of my girlfriend.

Goddess told me during my last session that the only thing between her and me was my girlfriend... she is right. Or has she just planted a seed in me so i feel this way? I really can't tell. But the end result is undeniable... Goddess has changed my relationship with my girlfriend... a girl i still feel i love... in a different way but still love all the same. It really is happening... my life is changing. I can feel it. I should be worried but i actually feel really excited about this. It's what I've craved... to be set down the path of servitude, of moneyslavery, to be controlled by the most beautiful woman I've ever seen.

Yesterday I had a nice day out with my girlfriend... going shopping and helping her family. Had a walk in a park for a bit too... that's supposed to be good right? But today I logged on to MFC and saw Goddess for just 2 minutes and it was 100 times better than all of yesterday. Those 2 minutes. She even smiled at me and blew me a kiss. I was in heaven.

I'm so lucky to be able to get mindfucked like this. I wouldn't change a thing.

Pre-session #2 thoughts...

Tomorrow will be my 2nd session with Goddess Lilyan and the 1st planned session. The fact that it's planned is significant for 2 reasons. The first reason is that for the first session i was caught by surprise by Goddess' beauty and was overcome by it. This made me weak and perhaps easier to control. For tomorrow's session i will (hopefully) be better prepared. The second reason it's significant is that Goddess now knows more about me and my weaknesses and can therefore exploit them.

For the first session I was putty in Goddess' hands. She had me under her power immediately and i couldn't escape. Luckily i had financial limitations on that day and therefore couldn't spend too much. If i had more funds available to me then I'm sure she would have quite easily acquired them. Not only that, she was really starting to brainwash me and get inside my head when the session ended but it was too short for her to finish the job. It felt like there was some unfinished business on her part... Tomorrow's session will be longer which gives her more chances to mindfuck me and make me her moneyslave and her devotee.

So for session #1 she was undoubtedly the winner. By knockout in the first round! For our next session I have some things to my advantage and she she has some that are to her advantage. I guess I'm the underdog here but i need to do my best to win the battle. After spending some time in her room and hearing her other slaves who are selling houses, buying new cars for her and all sorts of things like that, I'm starting to see how dangerous this game can be. I've only just entered her world and perhaps i haven't strayed too far from the exit yet... i still have enough breadcrumbs i can leave behind me so i can navigate my way out and escape if i need to. It's still just a game to an extent... however, if things go in a certain direction tomorrow then maybe i will get in too deep. This is a very serious issue I need to consider.

There are, however, 2 big mistakes I've already made. The first one is making this blog and linking it to her. Many of these posts reveal all sorts of things about me she can take advantage of. The second is I told her my budget for tomorrow but then also told her how many funds i have available to spend if i had to! So she will obviously try to make me go over my budget. Overspending would of course have a direct short term financial impact but also a more serious long term effect as well. The more time i spend with her the more she can lure me away from my girlfriend and make me hers. Furthermore, it's important that I set boundaries financially and not overstep them. I need to show her some strength and power and that no matter how badly i want to i won't overspend! I can't let her get total control of my finances or else she will make me overspend in all our sessions in future.

It appears that our session tomorrow will be split into two parts... or another way of looking at it is our fight will be split into 2 rounds. Our battle of the minds! Of will power... Yes she is very powerful as many of you know but i think I'm stronger of will than she may expect. I give myself a fighting chance :-)

I'll post again here during our break between the 2 sessions. Cross your fingers for me that this post will show me feeling strong and in control! Yes i expect to be horny and weak to an extent, but I also hope to have some control over myself and be able to show everyone who reads my blog how us slaves can show some resolve against the greatest Goddess there is!

Wish me luck :-)

Why Goddess Lilyan?

Here are 10 reasons why Goddess Lilyan has had such a profound impact on me in the space of a week:


1.  Her legs

Let's get the most obvious one out of the way first.  I'm definitely a "leg guy" and Goddess Lilyan has the most perfect legs i've ever seen.  I can say with all honesty that i doubt i'll ever see anything as perfect.  Her thighs are the part i get particularly drawn to.  However, much like Lilyan's other features, there's so much more to it rather than just her legs being sexy...  Having the assets is only part of it... it's using them that is the most important part.  She is able to strike the sexiest poses that highlights their perfection.


2.  Her voice

Goddess has a very sexy voice.  Yes she has an accent (a very sexy one too) but there's so much more to it than that.  Many visitors to her room want to know where she is from but she won't answer... I really like that.  Her nationality doesn't make her who she is nor is it what makes her voice so seductive and powerful... although it may help!  It's the tone of her voice... how she varies it weather she is talking down to subs, berating disrespectful users or seducing weak minded people like myself.  I love how she says my name "Dave"  it gives me chills of pleasure every time.


3.  Her hands

Goddess has beautiful hands and nails.  She also wears very nice rings to highlight their beauty.  The best part of her hands, however, is how she runs them over her legs and hair and other parts of her body.  then when she wears gloves it's taken to a whole new level.  I feel that her hands are very expressive...  she uses them to focus her devotees to parts of her body she wishes to be focused on.  So in a way they are an extension of her mind.  which brings me to...


4.  Her mind

This is probably the most powerful aspect of Goddess Lilyan.  She is obviously very intelligent and understands how the mind of her devotees work and how to get inside it.  You can also tell by the way she speaks and her choice of words... she's very well spoken and this is extra impressive if English is in fact her second language (which it may not be i'm not sure)  I feel like there's so much that can be said about the power of her mind but I'm only starting to understand its power.  After a week, however, there's no doubting its power and it's something I'm very very attracted to thus far.


5.  Her wit

Goddess Lilyan has to deal with all sorts of annoying, freeloading visitors to her free chat rooms.  This could potentially be irritating for her and for other members in her room but Goddess is able to make a positive out of this by putting them in her place with her dry wit which is very entertaining :-)  I love hearing her "i'm from your computer" response to "where are you from?" She's also witty with her devotees too.  This is once again an extension of her mind.


6.  Her smirk

Goddess' use of wit is often coupled with her sexy smirk.  Even sexier is when she is chatting with a devotee who she knows she has wrapped around her finger.  She knows they are hers and she can do what she likes with them...  This appears to amuse her greatly which is what results in the smirk.  I've been the recipient of such smirks a couple of times and hope to receive many more in future.


7.  Her eyes

Goddess has the most beautiful blue eyes.  They are warm and deep but also piercing and powerful.  She really knows how to use them too.  In my first session she zoomed in to them as she really started to mindfuck me.  Her eyes are also very expressive... they often light up when she smirks and when she gives a sexy warmer smile too.


8.  Her style

So far every outfit I've seen Goddess in has been stunning.  Her choice of stockings/pantyhose, lingerie, dresses and skirts have all been really sexy.  But it's not only her clothes, it's her accessories as well... her makeup and jewelry.  She has really good taste and pride in her appearance.  She also seems to really look after her body and health too.  She aims to be the best of herself and demands the best from her slaves as well.  It's something i really admire about her.


9.  Her care

Providing you show your respect to her, Goddess will care for you and your needs.  It must be hard having several rooms online simultaneously and answering several questions from different people at the same time, many of which may have no interest in showing their appreciation, and maintain a caring attitude.  Of course she is a dominant woman and guys should rightfully serve her rather than she serve them and this is what happens.  However, there is an element of care a mistress can have for a slave... providing the slave serves her well.  Goddess Lilyan appears to have this a lot.  When I'm in her room she cares for my thoughts, responds to my comments and has let me start this blog for her.  When she has a private show she tells everyone and even sometimes says how long she will be gone for.  She doesn't have to do any of these things but she does and it's very generous of her.  I feel that she has given me much more than I have to her.  It's something i really really appreciate and greatly increases my fondness for her.  If she is doing this out of true generosity or as a tactic to increase the addiction a new slave has for her i'm not sure... but both possible reasons are something i'd be happy with.


10.  Her lips/hair/feet

I wanted to only write 10 things but i have three more to write about so will mention each briefly here.  There are times when Goddess licks her lips and that drives me crazy.  Also when she applies lipstick it gets me really really weak.  Hair and feet are 2 things i've never really had a fetish for before but Goddess' are undeniably stunning.  As she teases and seduces her devotees with her hair and feet i can feel myself getting some new fetishes.  Something that is quite exciting to say the least.